Me | Golda Raphael

Again

I’m starting again. Everything.
Not for the first time.
Probably not for the last.
Until I find what I’m looking for.

Published on 14th July 2011 10:49 PM.
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It’s been a while since my last post. I’d like to say I’ve spent all this time on projects, making amazing art … but I haven’t. The day job has been pretty intense, and although I no longer work evenings and weekends, I’m finding I hardly have any energy left for my own work. Consequently, I’ve been neglecting quite a few things. But I’m working on a plan to turn things around.

Published on 22nd May 2011 10:17 PM.
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Photography Update

In full photography mode this morning.

Spending the next hour or two planning out my new ‘people’ photography project. In 2010, I took a lot of photos of things. This year, I want to focus on people.
I also want to explore photo processing techniques in a lot more detail. So far, for me, processing has been about minor tweaks and colour correction. I want to see how I can use more advanced techniques to create more art-like images.

My big FAIL for 2010 has been not posting enough of my work online. That is all about to change. Will be posting a lot more, work in progress as well as finished work.

Stay tuned!!!

Published on 6th February 2011 12:06 PM.
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Write My Name In Ink

I follow Terry McMillan on Twitter and she had a wonderful quote today …

“Some folks in our lives should be in ink. Others, penciled in.”

As an introvert, I don’t make friends very easily. I know a lot of people, but true friends I can count on one hand and still have fingers to spare.

I’m fairly hard to get to know. Friendly enough, but prefer my own intense inner chatter to the small talk and general pleasantries that are required when trying to bond with people and create rapport. The friends that I have are those that continue to come closer no matter how much I push away, and those that follow me when I try to run.

I make friends like a wounded animal. Tentatively. Unsure if you’re trying to help or to harm.

In the same way a spy on a secret mission has this incredibly exciting other life they can’t talk about, I too tend to go through the friendship game wearing one conventional disguise or another, never giving too much away (except on Twitter where I over share to a phenomenal degree) and eventually vanish from peoples lives without even a goodbye – always thinking my impact on them must have been so minimal anyway they won’t even notice I’ve gone.

This has been a recurring theme in my romantic relationships too. You can be complex, mysterious and aloof up to a point, beyond that you’re just too much like hard work.

The irony is, I’m actually a very easy nut to crack (especially if you know how to Google ‘INFP’).

The vast majority of people I know will have ‘penciled’ me in. That doesn’t bother me. What does matter is that the people I love and care about write my name in ink.

Published on 11th October 2010 12:30 AM.
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INFP Blues

Feeling incredibly sad today. One of the unpleasant side effects of being an INFP.

Only way out is to sleep it off.

I’ll be as good as new in the morning.

Sometimes the heart can’t cope with all the things it doesn’t have.

Published on 3rd October 2010 11:25 PM.
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I’m back

It has been a hectic 7 weeks in my new job but now that I’ve settled and found my feet, I’m ready to resume my film, photography and writing projects … and of course regular updates on this blog.

I have quite a few things I want to wrap up this year as I’d like to start 2011 fresh, working on brand new projects.

My plan is that by the end of this year I will have completed …

A short film

A novel

Online photography portfolio

I’ve stopped all my other mini projects so I can concentrate on the above (and the day job).

I’m also working on my fitness as well as throwing myself into my Danish lessons so that I can go into 2011 with some new language skills.

Last but not least, I’m trying to master the art of meditation. This is particularly difficult for me as my mind is always ‘talking’, but I like the discipline involved and the idea of developing my mind.

So, this is pretty much my focus until the end of the year. Looking forward to seeing what the new year will bring.

Published on 19th September 2010 7:20 PM.
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Memories

I tend to remember things by the way they make me feel.

I can re-live a memory, no matter how old, that is as clear and as strong as the day it happened.

However, there is a bias towards the melancholic. I don’t seem to retain happy memories in the same way.

I live the sad stuff over and over again.

I secretly think this is why I need to write.

Published on 15th August 2010 11:54 PM.
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Excuses, Excuses.

Yes, I know … FAIL.

I haven’t stuck with my pledge to ‘post 3 times a week’.

I start a new job today and had to do some major prep to get up to speed.

Will make good on my promise this week though.

Published on 2nd August 2010 12:26 AM.
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Changes. Big Changes !!!

Things have been a bit slow around here lately.

I’ve had a couple of pressing issues to take care of which have required my absolute and undivided attention these past few months. And while I did make some half-hearted attempts to post during this time, to be honest my mind was elsewhere.

But now I’m back, fully focused and ready to up the ante.

I’ve decided to change things up around here. While I like the look and feel of the site, I’m not too happy with what I have been posting recently (yawn). It has been a bit ‘lazy’.

I’ve also been thinking about how this site fits in with my other ones, my Portfolio and Lifestream, and what I want this, as my main site, to say.

Here are some of the changes I have decided to make for starters.

I will post …

at least 3 times a week (I’ve publicly said it now so no backing out)
more about the things that interest and inspire me (remember these? - The Beauty of Bernini, Under The Protection of Stone Angels and Evelyn McHale – The Saddest Photograph)
more about my work. Time to start posting details of my photography, writing and film projects as well as the creative process behind getting them done.
more about me. I’m a complicated animal.
my discoveries. I’m constantly finding amazing things, people and places. I’ll share these on here.

So, beginning from this post forward, things should get a lot more interesting.

Published on 27th July 2010 12:15 AM.
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