I’ve been in Ghana since early December. Having been back now for about 2 weeks, it’s taken me this long to get back to ‘normal’ life. The dreamy mist of 5 weeks in the sun hasn’t quite lifted yet, but all that is familiar is beginning to slot back into place.
Category: Me
Making Beats
My most expensive app purchase to date. Korg iMA-20 synth studio for iPad. Really getting into the whole songwriting thing.
Bjork better watch her back. Just saying.
We are creators
I’m about to set in motion something I have been planning for awhile.
To say I’m excited is an understatement. After months (years, actually) of complaining, I’m finally doing something about it.
So easy to forget that we are the creators of our own story.
Updates to follow soon.
Again
I’m starting again. Everything.
Not for the first time.
Probably not for the last.
Until I find what I’m looking for.
Turning It Around
It’s been a while since my last post. I’d like to say I’ve spent all this time on projects, making amazing art … but I haven’t. The day job has been pretty intense, and although I no longer work evenings and weekends, I’m finding I hardly have any energy left for my own work. Consequently, I’ve been neglecting quite a few things. But I’m working on a plan to turn things around.
Photography Update
In full photography mode this morning.
Spending the next hour or two planning out my new ‘people’ photography project. In 2010, I took a lot of photos of things. This year, I want to focus on people.
I also want to explore photo processing techniques in a lot more detail. So far, for me, processing has been about minor tweaks and colour correction. I want to see how I can use more advanced techniques to create more art-like images.
My big FAIL for 2010 has been not posting enough of my work online. That is all about to change. Will be posting a lot more, work in progress as well as finished work.
Stay tuned!!!
Golda and Dolph Lunderen
I won a LoveFilm competition this week and get to meet Dolph Lunderen in the flesh TOMORROW!!!
Those of you who have read my About Me page, know that there are only 3 men who rock my world … and Dolph is one of them.
Probably won’t be able to sleep tonight.
Details tomorrow.
Write My Name In Ink
I follow Terry McMillan on Twitter and she had a wonderful quote today …
“Some folks in our lives should be in ink. Others, penciled in.”
As an introvert, I don’t make friends very easily. I know a lot of people, but true friends I can count on one hand and still have fingers to spare.
I’m fairly hard to get to know. Friendly enough, but prefer my own intense inner chatter to the small talk and general pleasantries that are required when trying to bond with people and create rapport. The friends that I have are those that continue to come closer no matter how much I push away, and those that follow me when I try to run.
I make friends like a wounded animal. Tentatively. Unsure if you’re trying to help or to harm.
In the same way a spy on a secret mission has this incredibly exciting other life they can’t talk about, I too tend to go through the friendship game wearing one conventional disguise or another, never giving too much away (except on Twitter where I over share to a phenomenal degree) and eventually vanish from peoples lives without even a goodbye – always thinking my impact on them must have been so minimal anyway they won’t even notice I’ve gone.
This has been a recurring theme in my romantic relationships too. You can be complex, mysterious and aloof up to a point, beyond that you’re just too much like hard work.
The irony is, I’m actually a very easy nut to crack (especially if you know how to Google ‘INFP’).
The vast majority of people I know will have ‘penciled’ me in. That doesn’t bother me. What does matter is that the people I love and care about write my name in ink.
INFP Blues
Feeling incredibly sad today. One of the unpleasant side effects of being an INFP.
Only way out is to sleep it off.
I’ll be as good as new in the morning.
Sometimes the heart can’t cope with all the things it doesn’t have.
I’m back
It has been a hectic 7 weeks in my new job but now that I’ve settled and found my feet, I’m ready to resume my film, photography and writing projects … and of course regular updates on this blog.
I have quite a few things I want to wrap up this year as I’d like to start 2011 fresh, working on brand new projects.
My plan is that by the end of this year I will have completed …
I’ve stopped all my other mini projects so I can concentrate on the above (and the day job).
I’m also working on my fitness as well as throwing myself into my Danish lessons so that I can go into 2011 with some new language skills.
Last but not least, I’m trying to master the art of meditation. This is particularly difficult for me as my mind is always ‘talking’, but I like the discipline involved and the idea of developing my mind.
So, this is pretty much my focus until the end of the year. Looking forward to seeing what the new year will bring.
This will not be the thing that brings me down
Sometimes, when your whole world is falling apart, you just sit. Silent. Calm.
Because deep down inside, you know that …
… this will not be the thing that brings you down.
Memories
I tend to remember things by the way they make me feel.
I can re-live a memory, no matter how old, that is as clear and as strong as the day it happened.
However, there is a bias towards the melancholic. I don’t seem to retain happy memories in the same way.
I live the sad stuff over and over again.
I secretly think this is why I need to write.
New Film Project
My life is one big revolving carousel of projects at the moment and I am adding another one into the mix.
I’m making a film.
Once upon a time filmmaking was my first and only love. If you made a film it had to be on 35mm (or 16mm at a push) or else it wasn’t a ‘real’ film.
It was a f@cking expensive hobby that required specialist crew and processing at a post production facility.
Photography and writing used to be the things I did in-between film projects, but because of their instant nature, they slowly became the things I did
the most often, and film slowly took a back seat.
Well not anymore.
I’m starting development on my new film project this week, and it’s good to be back.
Still toying with two variations of the same idea. A proper post, with project details to come as soon as I’ve made up my mind.
Angel? or Viking? … just joking (or am I?).
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