View to a kill – one of my favourite films
Sometimes, when your whole world is falling apart, you just sit. Silent. Calm.
Because deep down inside, you know that …
… this will not be the thing that brings you down.
I tend to remember things by the way they make me feel.
I can re-live a memory, no matter how old, that is as clear and as strong as the day it happened.
However, there is a bias towards the melancholic. I don’t seem to retain happy memories in the same way.
I live the sad stuff over and over again.
I secretly think this is why I need to write.
My life is one big revolving carousel of projects at the moment and I am adding another one into the mix.
I’m making a film.
Once upon a time filmmaking was my first and only love. If you made a film it had to be on 35mm (or 16mm at a push) or else it wasn’t a ‘real’ film.
It was a f@cking expensive hobby that required specialist crew and processing at a post production facility.
Photography and writing used to be the things I did in-between film projects, but because of their instant nature, they slowly became the things I did
the most often, and film slowly took a back seat.
Well not anymore.
I’m starting development on my new film project this week, and it’s good to be back.
Still toying with two variations of the same idea. A proper post, with project details to come as soon as I’ve made up my mind.
Angel? or Viking? … just joking (or am I?).
Those who know me, know that I am obsessed with archangels. They are my favourite writing subject. I was so frustrated when I heard about Angelology (and the studio battle for the film rights).
It was almost identical in theme to a novel and a screenplay I had spent almost a year working on. I was gutted. I never did finish it – it’s still sitting in a draw somewhere.
So now some time has passed and I feel I can now read it without bursting into tears.
Angelology: The story follows a nun in New York who unwittingly reignites an ancient war between Angelologists, a group who studies angels,
and a race of descendants of angels and humans called the Nephilim. The story blends ancient biblical pericopes, the myth of Orpheus, and the fall of rebel angels.
There are three things that fuel me – Photography, Writing and Filmmaking.
I am only really happy when I am doing these things.
I can’t choose between them as each of them caters to a core need I have.
I am a ‘feeler’ and everything I do is about capturing or re-creating emotion.
I rotate my projects daily, rather than spending weeks/months doing one at a time. For me this keeps things fresh and prevents things from becoming too routine. Most importantly though, it stops me from becoming bored. It also means I get just enough space from each project to allow ideas to develop some body and can then return to them with renewed enthusiasm, a fresh pair of eyes and a clear head.
Inspiration seems to come to me the most just before I fall asleep. If I don’t write it down, I will forget it by morning.
Some of my best ideas have come from song lyrics. Some of my worst from trying to copy other people.
Be true to yourself and be free.
*Bonus points if you know which song the title of this post was taken from.
Yes, I know … FAIL.
I haven’t stuck with my pledge to ‘post 3 times a week’.
I start a new job today and had to do some major prep to get up to speed.
Will make good on my promise this week though.